For those of you who've had a colicky baby - my hat is off to you. I cannot function lately. I try to have a normal conversation with my family and friends and most of the time I can't think of what I was going to say and what word I want to use. Alex is really nice and said that I can go work out tonight and he'll watch the kids. It's tempting...I have 17 more pounds to lose. But nothing is more enticing as my bed. All day long I think about how nice my pillows would feel and how comfy my mattress is. I keep saying to myself that I will sleep all through the night someday. Emmett did not sleep Saturday night at ALL! He finally passed out at 6am and slept until 10am. That was his only nap until 10pm Sunday. The only way I can get him to calm down sometimes is to lay right next to him and curl my arms around him to help his little tummy. I feel so bad for the little guy.
Lack of sleep is an interesting test of character. I'm at my absolute worst lately. I was thinking as I was grumbling to whoever could hear me at 3am that I wasn't going to breastfeed anymore and if I had throw-up catapulted on me one more time I was going to lose my mind. During the day I handle it - but at night I turn into the most ornery person. Just because of lack of sleep! It's crazy if you think about it. Make me clean for 12 hrs straight - ok. Have me juggle two whiny kids all day - ok. Even force me to do all the laundry for the 3rd time that day because Emmett threw up on everything again - I handle it. But you take away my sleep and my world collapses. Why? I don't know. Does my body go into self preservation mode when I know I'm only going to get 4 hrs of sleep? I don't know. If you have any suggestions or magical fixes let me know. Until then - just don't try to rationalize with me or bring anything up that would be in the slightest bit disagreeable after the hour of 9pm....through 7am....and only during the time that both kids are taking a nap...and I've had a shower........so pretty much next year sometime around February!!!
3 comments:
For what it's worth...that's a pretty articulate blog post for someone who isn't getting a lot of sleep!
won't it be nice to have many helping hands this next month
Anna, I feel your pain! I keep telling Aaron, if this continues, I'm going to do formula. I've made a decision to breast feed, it's just so hard. It'll be nice to have some help!
Vicki
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